Ironically, I've just taken a nap. However, my post relates to the past few days. I mentioned how I've been getting to bed late, rising early, and laying awake in bed for at least an hour every night.
Why? I'm a senior. I shouldn't have worries, I should be getting the best sleep of my life.
The only things I should be concerned about, I'm not. I haven't started thinking about AP tests, and I could care less (no, i couldn't) about the musical.
I stay up with random thoughts about the little things in my life i need to accomplish.
Most of my lying awake thoughts are about saying goodbye to people. I don't want to. I know that once I'm in college I'll have just as good friends as I do now. My friendships I decided are cyclical, none of them lasting. I've spent four years developing school friendships, but nothing beyond that. So I'll go to college and I'll create another series of 4-year friendships. Maybe when I have a career, along with job stability will be friend stability.
That's the type of stuff I think about.
Something else I've contemplated: Why is it, with so many attractive (I'm going to use girls, because I'm a guy) girls around, we guys typically find ourselves attracted to just one. I mean, there are many girls who we know are attractive/beautiful/etc., yet we are really only attracted to one person, before even knowing their personality. What makes one pretty girl more attractive than another? It's like that whole soul mate deal. What is the first thing that makes you forget the other girls and focus in on just one? I imagine the same thing applies vice versa (but not criss-crossed, if you know what I mean...)
And then sometimes (or every night) I fantasize my life in another time and place (this is when I'm still awake and relatively sane, mind you). For instance, one of my long running fantasies is that I own the Cubs. My first action was to fire all the real players because they make too much. What I did was then hired a bunch of my classmates (if you're reading this, you're probably on the team). None of them have experience, so we obviously didn't win the world series in our first season...we lost in the NLDS. After 10 seasons, though, we have been in 7 world series and won 5 of them. I have won 3 Cy Young awards and 4 MVP awards...if you want more indepth statistics, just let me know. I've got them all up here (i am pointing to my head).
I also daydream about saving animals in the Savannah, going on covert ops in warehouses, and fighting in World War III (using civil war weaponry). The common theme, ironically, is that there are always 7 friends. I LOVE order and logic and organization and storylines, so all of my fantasies are very indepth. I spend more time working on characterization and history than I actually spend on the fantasy part.
I am quite possilby the weirdest and most pathetic individual in the world.
I've now depressed myself.
I hope I haven't taken up too much of your time (...cellophane, mr. cellophane...)
Random Factoid: Wheaton North won the state Scholastic Bowl Championship (3rd year in a row)
Pip Pip.
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